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RS,

it’s been some long stretch of
time
all green and brown
since I last saw you
in a dirty apartment

three jobs
and a degree
and a girlfriend
that calls collect while
she’s abroad

your birthday came and gone
I left a card
in / at your mother’s door
to make sure you got it

if you did
I haven’t heard from you

well
I’m good

I’m growing my hair out

I finished a play

I have a nest

I don’t cry as often

I wish things didn’t sound
so grey
but okay

I guess

That’s it

Wait. I added things
this -
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I wish I knew
why things weren’t so frightening
when you see them

I think you hated me
most of the time
when I yelled
got too drunk or high
and threw chess pieces
at you
in an old basement

sorry about that

it feels like
if I finish typing this
you’ll be gone

Do your parents respect you still?

what does it matter
I never gave good advice

see you

fuck.

I’ll see you

Love,

L