999 Z73

sleep deprived hallucinations
what a beautiful day

sick every morning
get me a badge from HR
I’ll prove myself right
she can vindicate herself
however

I’ve got a sheet where I tally
up all my stories
see if they ever line up right

dizzy most days
almost vomited off my stairs
almost passed out when I sat down

the longer time goes by
I’m getting bitter
I’m chewing lemons
spitting up what I can
keep my hands to myself

I just figured we had time
my math ain’t good
I’m a fool in clichéd rooms

I think I see her everyday

my apologies are curled
around my teeth

I did it all for myself

I’ll be a damn idiot
if I go on another bender
tell her friends to write me cards
see if I can weigh their dislike

I’ll get sympathy from the clergy
and the mirror
it whines like a sick pup