999 Z69

I’m a criminal in memory
and a fool
with a bible
looking for redemption

an itemized list
-make coffee
-smoke a cigarette
-drink coffee
-eat breakfast
-lie back down
-stare at the wall
-get up
-smoke a cigarette

I’m a criminal in her memory
but I’m a priest
with a bible full of holes
where I’ve stored a flask
and the gifts I haven’t discarded

I’ll be around

I’ll make my statue
out of mud
give myself a stern brow
and a sorrowful expression

and I can’t decide
whether to laugh
or
sulk

I hope regret is a shared emotion