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threw up in the toilet
damn near passed out
against the hamper
damn near thought I would die
in my bathroom

more than anything else
more than sick
more than dizzy
I was bored of those nights
that glow with promise
but taste the same in the morning

a hoarse throat and a heaving cough

I decided in the morning to quit
smoking
drinking
for a little while

I’m too frustrated to die
like the rest of my blood