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he used to call himself a writer
now he lives with his mother
carries bags to cars
doesn’t get tipped that well

he was wearing brown work boots
a black t shirt
with holes under the arms
and pants bought at the hardware store
it’s utility, he said

the last time i saw him
he had a gold tooth
and a thin head of hair
if only all men were like him

what does that mean?
–
when i was younger
i envied men that worked
to live and the opposite
then i built new idols
now
now