1599S

in Japan

my father

takes me out drinking

after my fourteenth birthday

some bar

crowded with servicemen

describing

good liquor

good weed

the best pussy

he’s drinking

eating a key lime pie

eyeing the waitress

.

after

on a street corner

he holds onto me

staring at the sky

.

he stares down the sky all night

.

I play drums

at the base rec center

and after

walk the library shelves

.

I meet Kimmy

by the park

try to take photos of her

smiling and twirling

she’s covering her face

her freckles

.

I go home

jerk off while the shower runs

I almost faint

.

my father’s wife

gives birth at an Air Force base

I sit in the van