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green blooded

without a chance

I’m shivering and

counting the days

the endless numbered days

peeled from the wall

only to end

crumpled like scrap

in the bin

do you hear that buzzing

the hum of mosquitos

the only things

kissing your neck

making you scratch

and feel your skin

dry and flaking

underneath the jaw

I haven’t changed too much

the mannequin said

this is all I’ve been

plastic and without a name

you haven’t changed that much

you still don’t have a name

and take mine

when you want to feel

less alone

the

mirror peels

the camera peels

the attention comes

and your skirt comes down

mine comes up

and I’m saying my name

in hushed breaths

while I cum to digital tombs

all of a sudden

you’re older

and the smoke bothers you

and you forget

those dreams you had

about living that way

this way

and transplanting your brain

into someone better

take your time

and then you’re taking your time

and the paychecks

hit and your eyes

roll back

and another year

comes

and another year

comes

and another year

comes

and that young couple

across from you

causes you to turn

ask yourself

some question

the same damn thing

the same damn thing