1269

I asked about jazz and cigarettes and I felt my age

and I rolled my eyes at the bar
fought the urge to smoke
scratched my chin
felt my stomach turn over
and I thought about carbs
or proteins
and I looked at my beer
wondered how many slices of bread
it equalled

I thought of that Mingus
track

I thought of the new fillings
filling my teeth

and the man I barely knew
asked if I was seeing anybody
shook my head
thought about haircuts
and how I was going to
wear the same
shirt tomorrow

shit