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it’s like being in the pool
all your clothes on
feeling the fabric
stick to your skin
thinking
I get it
knowing a barrier
so porous

your eyes go dark
the Texas sky
seems like a hungry mouth
or an empty garage
where you worked out
when you were younger

isn’t that great?

you take a drink
but miss your mouth
say you want to move to India
and live poorly
then you think you’re a racist
ain’t that something

you get so high
playing chess in a basement
then trying to kiss
the boys you grew up with
or
threatening to kill a spider
then laughing
laughing
feeling knocked down

no
I didn’t abandon you